Wednesday
Merry Christmas . . . a day late
He spent most of the day crying (no, I DO NOT think the Santa suit traumatized him), but then gave us a wonderful gift last night by sleeping for almost 6 hours!
Today we ran errands using our front carrier - very nice! He slept through Lowes, Babies R Us and Meijer.
We had gone to the doctor on Monday - 11 lbs. 5 oz. and 22 inches long. She seems to think we might be feeding him too much . . . 3 pounds in 3 weeks, seems fine to me, after all, it is the holidays.
More Christmas spirit . . . http://www.flickr.com/photos/catsmine/sets/72157603551254710/
Friday
Those who say it better than I . . .
Dooce is one of my favorite blogs, but this entry was particularly meaningful to me. It makes me feel better that I cut things off when I did and went back on my meds.
And this is the perspective from her husband - thank you Jim http://blurbomat.com/archives/2007/12/20/how-i-do/
Wednesday
The sound of silence
"Remember when you said you hope we never run out of things to talk about?" Jim said.
"Yes, why?" I replied.
"Do you think that couple just had kids and was appreciating the sound of silence?"
I thought for like a mili-second, "Hmm, yep - now shut up and enjoy the silence."
Over the last week we"ve been visited by the spirits of future child - no past, no present - two futures . . . 11 months and 2 years. For now I'll stick with sleep deprivation in lieu of completely losing my mind.
Monday
Who Dey!
Saturday
Oh, so that's why they sell so many of those.
Anything that vibrates. JT loves his little seats that vibrate and we've taken to adding a vibrating pillow to the bassinet to help him sleep - very important.
Those stupid birth announcements they sell everywhere. I was trying to be creative and unique - I've given up and decided to sleep instead. I'm ordering my announcements like everyone else does - so much easier. Those should be in the mail by 2008 (I hope).
Sunday
Repeat after me, "everything will be okay"
Shortly after JT was born I was okay, but once we got home things started getting worse. Long story short I've stopped breast feeding and I'm going back on my pre-pregnancy meds. I'm hopeful that within a week things will get better. Until then I am so lucky to have the most wonderful, supportive husband and an amazing family.
Send Enfamil coupons . . .
Wednesday
Is this the most beautiful baby you've ever seen or what?
Tuesday
"The first 2 weeks are the hardest"
We are sleep deprived, I'm sick of crying, my boobs are sore, and God love him he's still a perfect little angel (even screaming his head off at 3 in the morning).
My parents got us a bassinet yesterday in the hopes of us both being able to sleep in bed with him close by. He slept on my chest in the recliner. He's content on me but as soon as I move him it's all over.
The binky is wonderful, until it leaves his mouth, then it's a problem. He wants to be changed, but hates being naked. It takes more than a half an hour after he eats for the gas to move through. We had our first poop blow out last night - 2 outfits down.
I'm rambling . . . we actually have to leave the house today - third time since we've had him home (Friday). I like seeing the outside world and since I can't drive maybe I'll be able to sleep in the car.
Here's my questions -
When do you let them scream it out? For how long? Even when they go from zero to 100 right away?
How do you lay them down after they are asleep on you?
How do you use the bassinet, are they just supposed to sleep in it next to you? Do I need to get him use to it first?
Does it really get easier? Do you promise?
Wednesday
Tired, sore, brain dead . . . so worth it.
Today was a little rough - the good meds have worn off, he was up all night and not eating well during the day. Then tonight he was eating well (as in for 3 hours straight) but not giving us the output. I think it's a clear sign you're a parent that you get excited when the nurse shows you a wet diaper through the nursery window!
He's a little jaundice, but well below levels of concern for being almost 3 days old. All in all we still think he's perfect. Speaking of perfect, he's sleeping now - which means I should be too.
Monday
Okay, we'll keep him
Wouldn't you?
Jim says "Wow, it's a life changing experience. When he's yours you aren't worried about holding, it comes natural." (He has not stopped beaming)
A giant welcome to parenthood
Okay flash back to 4:00 this morning. Jim got up to go to the bathroom and Daisy had been popping her head up trying to get up on the bed. Yogi had his time with us yesterday morning, so I asked Jim to lift Daisy up into bed with us. As soon as he did we both heard a weird noise. We listened but couldn't figure out what it was . . . laid back down. Then I smelt something - I smelt pee. We hopped up and turned on the light. Apparently Yogi had gotten jealous and actually lifted his leg on our bed. The duvet, comforter, and carpet - all peed on. Good morning mom and dad.
So now it's 4:20 and I'm awake and blogging. I thought I had at least one more night before this happened.
Sunday
T-Minus 20 hours and counting
Tomorrow, as in the day after today. Holy crap.
The house is ready, we've received the Ms. Makin seal of approval (it's almost as good as the Good Housekeeping seal).
But just cause the house is ready doesn't mean I am. Anyone who knows me knows that I research the crap out of stuff before making decisions. I've talked to a zillion people, pulled up stories online, probably looked at more than I ever should have . . . still not ready.
Tuesday
I have pretty feet, don't I?
As I walked out I called Jim and told him "I have pretty feet!" His response, "Can you see them?"
I can when I'm sitting down.
Sunday
You and me's gonna rumble kid
Thursday
5 Years Ago Today . . .
Tuesday
Monday
Mark Your Calendars
Works for me. I was okay either way, but this way it's not my decision.
List update:
- Bookshelf is in place
- Furniture is in place
- Kitchen is no longer storage for a shop vac
- Most of the clothes/blankets/burp rags/etc. are put away
I REALLY wish IKEA was open here. I had bought several storage boxes in Chicago and I REALLY wish I'd bought a ton more. Anyone going to Chicago anytime soon?
Sunday
It's beginning to look a lot like a house . . .
- DONE - Move in more furniture from the POD (I want that GONE this week)
- DONE - Put the crib together
- Bring up the bookshelf for Crabby's room
- IN PROGRESS - Start to put things away in Crabby's room (clothes, toys, diapering stuff)
- OFFICE DONE - Hang pictures in Crabby's room, office, and our bedroom
- The bathroom needs work - but that might have to wait a day or two
The living room is almost completely back together, my office is done, the dinning room is done (including setting up the pack and play), our bedroom is done except for a mirror and some knick knacks. The kitchen is a mess and Crabby's room still needs some storage bins, decorating, and the drunken dresser needs to be fixed so I can fill it.
All in all a pretty successful day. Now I'm going to go collapse . . .
Carpet Angels!
Today, we can do carpet angels! We have carpet! Lovely, soft, covering the plywood carpet! Karen and Rick came over today and as usual Jimmy busted his little butt trying to get things done. The blinds are all hung (although one is a little short and should get replaced today). Our bedroom is pretty much together, the nursery still needs some work . . .
Name for the week - Crabby. Chosen for the second week in a row by Ms. Makin. This is two fold. #1 - Crabby's Daddy was exactly that yesterday. I'm pretty sure we're pushing him to his physical limits and he's tired. #2 - When we boiled the nipples and bottles today, we boiled them in Jim's crab pot. Then as we smelled the residual crab smell thought, hmmm - what if the baby is allergic to shellfish? So everything was re-boiled in another pot. But that sealed the name.
Here's the to do list for today:
- Move in more furniture from the POD (I want that GONE this week)
- Put the crib together
- Bring up the bookshelf for Crabby's room
- Start to put things away in Crabby's room (clothes, toys, diapering stuff)
- Hang pictures in Crabby's room, office, and our bedroom
- The bathroom needs work - but that might have to wait a day or two
It's 4:55 on Sunday morning, I can't sleep -I should go start putting my office in order, but I just don't feel like it . . .
Tuesday
Monday
Baby's soooo big
AJ is the lucky golden ticket holder this time and gets to come see Carpe in person. I'd offer to post the ultrasound pics, but the scanner is in the POD . . .
Saturday
3 down . . . 1 to go - and still no place to put the bounty
Friday
People are so creative . . .
Thursday
Yep - that looks about right
Carpet - 0, Cankels - 2
Aunt TaTa came over last night to help give out candy, we had a few cute kids and then a bunch of punks. I guess that's what you get for not living in a cookie cutter subdivision.
After Am left I looked at my legs and realized my cankels were in full effect. For those of you not lucky enough to experience cankels, this is where your feet and ankels fail to have a distinguishing point from your calf. I figured I'd put my feet up in the recliner and hunker down there for the night.
Apparently I wasn't the only one with that thought.
You can see that Yogi, Charlie (under my arm), and Minnie (on the belly), along with myself, and the Punkin Head are all hunkered down.
And my cankels haven't gone away . . .
Tuesday
Things are about to get interesting
Monday
Break on through . . .
Within 30 minutes I have 4 large trash bags full of clothes and a large box that all go to Goodwill. I can't lift them and we didn't have time to pull them down tonight, but I'm hoping within the next week or so.
I started going through decorations and bags and backpacks and all sorts of stuff that's up there. I think I'm finally at a point where I can get rid of a lot of stuff. It feels good. If I haven't used it then I won't miss it and maybe someone else will want it.
The third floor is painted so cute (clouds and bees and flowers) and will make a good play room when Punkin Head gets older (although I really hope to not be in this house then . . .). I have some pretty good stuffed animals and my whole Pez collection which add to the kid vibe. If I can get half of the "attic" portion emptied then I'll have room to store some of the "not right not" baby stuff and still have the rest of the place for play and my various toy collections.
So,
- What do you do with a large Beanie Baby collection that you no longer want?
- How many suitcases does one family need?
- At what point do you pitch, even though you really want to keep it?
Sunday
Halloween
Oh well, as we say in my family "It's only Halloween." Which means you'll get to do it again next year. And next year we'll have an 11 month old to dress up too!
Here are some pics from a dance we went to Saturday. That was what the orange barrel costume was for - but we went simple instead. http://www.flickr.com/photos/catsmine/sets/72157602772920210/
Thursday
The POD has eaten
Once we have a date set for the carpet then we'll take out the chairs and couch the night before. We need someone big and strong to help carry out my file cabinet and the litter box can go in the kitchen temporarily. Lord only knows what's in the closet, I'm assuming that will have to come out too - but I'll worry about that in a couple of days.
So my sister just stopped by with her friend. She had asked me to make her a 6 month pregnant belly. Now I, who am giving birth to the jolly green giant, don't really know what a typical 6 month pregnant belly looks like so I had to guess. She stopped by to pick up the belly, she says it will work - I asked for a picture.
But as she's on her way here I'm warning her that I have no pants on. I have maybe 3 outfits that fit. I'm doing laundry, so everything goes in the wash - which means I have no pants. My 2 pairs of PJs are in the dryer and then are going into the hospital bag - which means I have no pants. Oh well, most of my family doesn't wear underwear, at least I have that on.
On the Nan update - Nan came "home" (not her home, mom & dad's home) this afternoon. She's hunkered down in Amy's old room in a rented hospital bed. I'll be working from there tomorrow afternoon.
I go to the doctor in the morning, I'm hoping we can seriously talk induction. Not only for Nan's sake, but also because I'M SICK OF CARRYING A 20 POUND BOWLING BALL IN MY GUT! Don't get me wrong, I love this child and will do whatever it takes for Packy to be happy and healthy, BUT IT'S GETTING UNCOMFORTABLE! You should have seen me at the salad bar today - trying to reach the food - it wasn't pretty.
Tuesday
Sunday
Back her up here boys . . .
Wednesday
Grrrrrr
Here's what we know:
- Nothing
Here's what we think we know:
- She has acute leukemia - we thought it was the one type that is treatable, but now we aren't sure
- She has colon cancer - but we have to wait for the biopsy to know what type, how severe, etc.
- She has a mass on her pancreas - we can worry about that "down the road"
- She has a mass on her kidney - still not sure about that one
- She had nodules in her lungs - too small to biopsy, also worry about those "down the road"
How long is this road? Every day we seem to find larger pot holes, will we ever really know anything?
Sunday
33 Weeks and Counting
Last weekend the girls went to Chicago to see AJ. Turns out Abby had a baby in her belly too!
We had a great time, but discovered that the back seat of the truck is not big enough for mom, me, and the baby (Cubby last week - being in Chicago and all).
We hit IKEA, did some damage, saw AJ, and came home. I didn't have a baby, my water didn't break. It was a good trip.
On Tuesday I woke up short of breath with my heart racing. It didn't go away. Karen ended up taking me to labor & delivery where we spent the day hooked up to monitors. Long story short - Cubby and I are okay, things are good to go.
On Wednesday Mom took Nan to the hospital, she's been short of breath and so tired. They admitted her and started doing tests.
On Thursday we found out that Nan has Acute Leukemia. Without treatment they initially have given her 2-4 weeks. That's not enough time she "has to see this baby," so we took her to Good Sam. Sam is the baby name of the week - we'll be spending a lot of time there.
They have scanned, poked, and prodded almost every part of Nan. She's gotten blood and she's on oral meds for chemo. On Monday all the doctors (I think we're up to 6 or 7) will put their heads together to figure out if she has a second type of cancer or not. If she does, there will be no treatment, if she doesn't - we'll give it all we've got with the chemo.
This week sucks. Yet through it all Nan is still worried about her hair, putting on her lip stick, and we're all laughing and sharing stories and generally making the most of what time we may have left.
Friday
And now a word from kids like you . . . a.k.a a guest writer
By Amy Thomas
The bathroom stall told me to kill my TV and that leprechauns were going to get me. Then my mom got confused pulling into the rest stop because it said trucks one way and cars the other. Well, since my mom drives a truck she didn’t know which way to go. Once on the road again my mom had a soapbox moment on why American coffee shops only have one stall restrooms. Why? I don’t know and I don’t care. My sister, yes, the pregnant one, is trying to attack me with her belly. Let me tell you why I don’t want to touch a pregnant belly…um, there is something living inside of there! To most, this is a beautiful thing. To me, it’s just weird. Why can’t babies come from somewhere else? Like the stork that our mothers teach us about. I would much more consider having children if someone where to leave it on my front door step preferably potty trained and in college. So while we are talking about pregnancy, let’s talk about birth. I am supposed to be in the room while my sister is giving birth! Lucky me my only job it to catch Jim, my brother-in-law, the one responsible for this whole pregnancy, when he faints. There is a good and bad to this, like most things in life. Jim is tall, tall enough to block my view of whatever else might be going on that I don’t think I am prepared to see. The other side, Jim is tall, tall enough that when he falls he is taking me and probably two other innocent spectators down with him. I hope this kid likes me.
It’s now lunchtime, we are about 30 miles outside of Chicago but mom wants to eat before we get stuck in traffic. So, being the caring mother that she is asked what we wanted to eat, offering up the restaurant that is “now serving pies?!?!” We now decided on Bob Evans….um, they have PIES too! I think someone wants pie. Mom parked the car and just came in to meet us, it’s raining outside. So as mom was putting away her umbrella she said “cheap ass umbrella” um, yeah, it’s National City. Nuf’ said.
Tuesday
Live Action Footage . . . A couple of months later
*Don't be alarmed that the top of the head seems to be missing, it's just how the sound waves bounce back. You can see a little smile and those long legs (they look long in this) right in Bobble's face.*
Monday
Quiet time
Forgot the name of the week
Bobble, short for Bobble Head (given that the head is due a month earlier than the rest of the baby).
Which . . . by the way. Did you know that you are suppose to ask future spouses how big their head was when they were delivered? Why don't they teach this stuff in high school, before you fall in love with the giant?
Screw it, they have good food delivery services.
I'm off Thursday and I think I might start checking out some day cares. I need to figure out if I have to make appointments or not. I'm not really sure how to go about doing this, but I guess I need to start somewhere.
I don't really have anything else to say - until next time . . .
"To read a book for the first time is to make an acquaintance with a new friend; to read it for a second time is to meet an old one."
~Chinese Saying
Friday
How cute is this?
Make sure you check out their t-shirts too!
http://www.rockandrattle.com/tshirts.html
Speaking of cute stuff - why are the neat franchises never in Cincy?
http://www.salsababies.com/home.html
Should I Stay or Should I Go?
Second - when visiting the doc this week I asked if I could go to Chicago next week. He said he doesn't recommend it. According to him there is concern that if my water broke I would be stuck there until I deliver and I have no medical care there, and blah blah blah. Yet I get online and there are women still flying internationally until 32 weeks. They say you can fly locally until 35 weeks. So what do I do?
Thursday
Yeah . . . good luck with that
Monday
Make checks payable to . . .
Twaxton will be out of college by the time I pay off my student loans.
*sigh* Can I make myself a tax deductible charity?
Sunday
Oh the places you've been . . . sorry you missed it!
So, Twaxton (I'm tired, I'm running out of names - you come up with something) here are all the places you've gone while in utero . . . sorry you won't remember any of it.
California - At about 6 weeks, right when I'd found out I was pregnant I traveled to Cali for work. I was out of utero and didn't see much.
School - I finished my MBA and graduated. Your father thinks this counts as your higher education, I don't agree.
The Lake House - We've been to the Lake a few times - this is one place you will probably spend a lot of time and hopefully remember fondly as you grow.
Reds & Bengals games - One of each. The teams may suck, but when we get free tickets we're there to support them!
St. Thomas - Luckily you didn't need a passport yet. We had a great time and you gave me your first real kick on this trip.
WEBN Fireworks - Mommy almost ended up in jail for manslaughter, but it would have been justified - everyone knows you don't mess with a 7 month pregnant woman. Especially one that's a little more unstable by nature.
If the doc says it's okay, you'll be going to Chicago next week as well. Aunt Jamie is going to China and she has a day layover in ChiChi. This is simply an excuse to shop for you at Ikea. Although I'm not looking forward to the drive with you on my bladder, I guess seeing AJ will make it worth it (she does know how to get online, so I have to say that).
I personally am hoping the whole thing is a farce to get me out of the house so "While You Were Out" can come in and make you a kick-ass room, but I'll play dumb so I don't ruin the surprise.
Thursday
Buy this instead?
http://automobiles.honda.com/element/
:-)
I know, I'm a stinky little Schmdit . . . but you can't blame a girl for trying.
Monday
I want!
Sunday
Braxton + Twister = Brister?
I've been working most of the weekend - I'm in training this week and need to get some things done before that. I'm tired of working but kind of have no choice, so whatever. Jim is upstairs working on the room, so I guess at least I'm just sitting here working and not upstairs constructing . . .
Thursday
Didn't people use to bath in metal tubs?
So, no new shower/tub - we'll get by like we've gotten by with this entire house. More caulk. This is the house that caulk built and caulk continues to hold it together.
So here's that's "left" to be done:
Bathroom:
- re caulk tub/shower
- new cabinet doors/knobs
- smooth/"re-tile" floor
- new toilet
- wallpaper
- new faucet
- re-do funky curved wall/ledge
- rehang med cabinet
- accessorize
Room:
- fix floor
- carpet
- sew/hang curtains
- put up blinds
- paint bathroom door
- strip/paint attic door
- strip/paint windows
- new door for hall
- paint/decorate bookshelf
- hang pictures
- accessorize
- put crib together
I might as well go ahead and add
- solve world hunger
- get US Americans more maps so they can identify "the Iraq"
*Sigh* this child is sleeping in the dinning room.
Monday
Liars!
Here's more information than anyone needs, but what the heck. Last night I was looking at my boobs. Since becoming pregnant they've gotten larger and changed color and are doing all sorts of funky things. Apparently they also now leak. I expected that after the baby is born, but not 2-3 months before. Perhaps I was wrong in thinking I was close with my friends because this is something I would have thought they would have mentioned - while they were pregnant, when I became pregnant - at any point in time. But because this was omitted I've begun to wonder what else they aren't telling me. Is labor really not that bad? Is parenthood really a wonderful thing?
Amy believes it is a giant conspiracy to ensure the continuation of the human race. Upon having a child you receive the double secret probation instruction manual and an access code to a website. The website contains the most recent list of all things about pregnancy and parenting that you are not allowed to tell those who do not yet have a child. In exchange for the double secret probation instruction manual and continual updates you promise to abide by the omitting laws.
I think she's on to something. If they (meaning the mothers) were free to really discuss how things really are while pregnant, delivering, or after - only stupid people would decide to have children. This way, we have stupid and smart babies.
Anything else I should know, friends?
Sunday
We're certifiable, I mean certified
Speaking of my father, he's decided that there may be another name he would like to be called, as opposed to Czar (which he spells Zar) - GrandDude, which would make mom GrandDudette. Good luck finding that on a Grandparent's Day card.
We made our way down to Romweber today, a local furniture manufacturer. They have sales every six months or so and this year they had cribs. GrandDudette bought us one! Sockhead (Jim selected the name this week) will not have to sleep in a drawer! I swear when we said that out loud I got a little internal high five. It looks a little like this, but in a slightly darker color. We have no where to put it, so it sits in the box, in the dinning room until the room is done.
Who remembers Johhny's Toys? Remember this? I use to LOVE getting this card in the mail. It was addressed to ME and it meant that I was getting a toy! Apparently they still have the cards, the keys, and the castle.
Not only that, but there is also Totter's Otterville. I'd never heard of this until I saw some pictures the other day. Tonya looked at me like I had 3 heads - I'd never heard of Totter's Otterville? Apparently it's a mini children's museum/play area/birthday party location. http://www.johnnystoys.com/tottermain.html you can check it out if you like. They have a ballet studio and train tables and a min-grocery store and a play house and bunch of other fun stuff. If I'd known about this place my 30th would have been there!
Wednesday
Recent Email Conversation
UJ (my uncle who works for a toy company): You know the routine, you whine, you get.
Me: I love that routine!
UJ: You created that routine.
Not only can I create human beings, I can create kick-a$$ routines too!
Tuesday
Forget the kid . . .
Check out this site http://www.yourbabycanread.com/
Monday
2007 WEBN Fireworks
Aren't these pictures awesome? Thank you very much, I took them! Thanks to Billiam and Ms. Helen we had the amazing opportunity to watch the fireworks from One Lytle Place. The barge was stopped right in front of us and we were directly between the two bridges. We've watched the fireworks from a houseboat, our couch, the shore, and a row house - these were by far the best. We hadn't expected the invite and the chance to watch from an air conditioned structure while sitting on a comfy chair was more than we could pass up.
WEBN Fireworks Finale 2007
I didn't take the video, but thought it would be a good supplement to my pictures.
Sunday
Chipotle it is!
Last week we went to class for Baby Care Basics and Breastfeeding, Saturday it's all day Lamaze. I know I want drugs, but it's supposed to be good for getting prepared and you never know when you'll be stuck in a Taco Bell parking lot. After that we have Save-A-Baby, which is CPR basics.
The image is supposed to show a baby at 27 weeks - however it looks nothing like me. Add a much larger butt, a gut under the baby bump, and make the baby bigger (at least that's what I think).
We won't more measurements or images until the end of the month after our next ultrasound. At that point I'll find out if we're still breach and placenta previa and if I'm giving birth to a giant. I've been holding off on buying diapers or clothes because I'm not sure what size. Issue is from everything I've read they say the weight estimates are normally off by one to two pounds . . . so then what?
Friday
I gots me a dipoma!
Sr. Nancy, Sr. Thrakill, and Sr. Whoever that is up there.
Aliens could have signed it for all I care, as long as it's in my possession and means I don't have to go to school any more.
Sunday
Ta da - it's JoJo the dancing baby
Now I can look at these pictures and clearly see my child trying to lick his/her knee. Why, who knows - already fits into the family. JoJo does not like to sit still for pictures and JoJo is in utero folded in half with legs over head. JoJo is also breach and placenta preva, if this doesn't change I will have to have a c-section. I'd rather not, but whatever it takes to get the little bugger out safely.
This picture is a little more whispy, due to all the movement, but there's a little bit of a smile. During the u/s we got yawns, smiles, licking, eyes opening, and stretching. It was very cool. We don't have a DVD ripper right now so I can't upload the video, but I'll get it up soon.
Kudos for Mirror Imaging in Springdale. It's ironically operated by a family I've known for quite some time, in fact my u/s was done by someone I went to grade school and high school with. They are very nice, super flexible, and genuinely excited about helping you see your baby.